I'm tired of people saying "it's just a phase". It's not just a phase.

I'm 17, and I've been incelibate for about 2 years now. I've never had a girlfriend, and at this point I'm just accepting that I'll probably never get laid, or at least not until my 30s.<br><br>I can't go to parties or hangouts because I feel extremely self conscious about my appearance. I just feel like there's something fundamentally wrong with me, and I can't understand why anyone would find me attractive.<br><br>I'm not trying to be dramatic, but it's a very rough life right now. Every time I get the hope up that something good is going to happen to me, it's crushed and I just end up feeling worse.<br><br>I just wish that people would take my situation seriously, and not just brush me off and say that "it's just a phase". It's not just a phase. It's my life, and it sucks.<br><br>I just wish that I had someone to relate to. I wish I could go to a doctor and just be like "hey, I'm incelibate and I've been this way for a long time. I was wondering if you could tell me if it's going to get better in the future". But no, it's just a bunch of memecooks on chambers calling me a nerd.<br><br>I can't even get the heart of a normal woman, just the fat ones or the ones that have big piercings. And if I was being totally honest, the reason why I can't get with a normal woman is because of how I look.<br><br>I just feel like I can't even go on.<br><br>I don't really want to die or anything, but I don't see much hope for my future either.<br><br>I just wish that I had someone to relate to, even if it's just online.<br><br>Thanks for reading.