Just shot my family because noone loved me

I was only 19 when I shot my parents and little sister, I'm much older and wiser now but never could erase the image of my family that I killed, because I was so in love with one of my teachers. <br><br>I was so self-conscious of my looks that I thought no one would ever love me. My parents didn't love me, my sister would often bullied me for being so awkward and my family didn't even like my teacher, she was just nice to me.<br><br>I was so in love with this woman that I thought would never love me, that's why I killed my family because they wouldn't allow me to see her anymore. They just wanted me to focus in my studies instead of spending all my time with my teacher.<br><br>Now, I'm not asking you guys to feel sorry for me but I just wanted to share this story because it is a part of me that will never go away. I know I was wrong and that I will never forgive myself for the horrors I've done, but at that age I didn't knew any better.<br><br>It's funny, because after all that I killed my family for, I just realized that my teacher never loved me back, and now I have to spend the rest of my life thinking about the person I killed because I was too much of a coward to ask for her love.<br><br>This is my sorry excuse for a story, because I can't feel anything but regret, maybe one day I will be able to forgive myself.<br><br>&#x200B;