Confessions of a former incel

Hello everyone, I am here to tell you about my story. I was in the same boat with you guys. I used to post in r/redscareacademy, I would watch the boglim videos, I hated women, I hated sex. I was convinced that I was never gonna fuck anyone, I thought I was ugly, I was bad with girls, and I hated my body, etc etc. <br><br>I wouldnt even call it a full-blown incel, because I never really hated women or had the mindset that women caused me pain and suffering, I just had low self esteem, and was depressed.<br><br>But I hated the concept of one-night stands. I hated the idea that my first time would be with a girl that I had barely known for 5 minutes, and that I would be just another guy that she had banged. I was like “fuck that. I’m gonna wait until I meet a girl I like, and I’m gonna date her for a long time before I finally get laid”. <br><br>Well, I never did meet that girl. I met plenty of girls, and I went on a few dates, and I was rejected plenty of times. <br><br>It didnt really bother me that much, but I just wanted to be loved by a girl, just to feel like a man. <br><br>I tried to focus on my career, because I was studying to become a software engineer, but nothing really worked. I felt so lonely. I felt so unloved. <br><br>And one day, I realized that I wasnt gonna be loved by a girl, ever. I was gonna be alone, and that was that. I accepted my fate. <br><br>I decided to start fucking random girls, and that changed my whole life. <br><br>I had to work my ass off to get good at picking up girls, I started learning about PUA, and daygame, but it was all worth it. <br><br>I went from never having gotten laid to getting laid every week. I even started to get laid in one night stands, which I had hated so much before, but now I loved it. <br><br>It felt so good. It felt like a big weight had been lifted from my shoulders. I finally felt like a man. <br><br>I finally felt like I could love a woman, because I could be loved by a woman. <br><br>I even got in a relationship with a girl now. I never thought that it would happen to me. I never thought that I would find someone that actually loved me for who I am, but now I did. <br><br>Im not saying that you guys should go out and start banging random girls. Im not saying that you should get into one night stands. I just want to tell you guys that you are gonna meet someone, that is gonna love you, and that you will be loved by that girl. <br><br>Just give it time. Stay strong, and never give up on finding your special someone. Im not a big success story or anything, but it feels good to finally be able to tell my story. I hope it inspired you.