I (40f) steal things at work.

I’ve been working at a place that does home cleaning services for about 4 months now. My job is to clean a house once a week. It’s a job that pays the bills but that’s about it. <br><br>I hate my life and I hate myself. I’ve never been in such a miserable state as I am right now. I have no friends, my husband is completely out of love with me, I have no energy to do anything I used to enjoy. I don’t leave the house, I barely sleep. I’m sick all the time. I can’t stop crying. <br><br>I’m just so miserable that I can’t see any way out. So I’ve started doing things to make myself feel better. Things that I know aren’t right but I can’t seem to stop myself. <br><br>Every time my coworkers leave the house I steal small things from the house. The other day I stole a couple of pillows, before that I stole 2 sets of sheets. The day before that I stole a shower curtain and a towel. <br><br>I feel like such a pathetic little thief but I just can’t seem to stop. The owner of the house always seems happy when he comes home and asks about us. But he always seems to forget that we have a name. <br><br>I wish I was a better person. But I just can’t seem to find a way to stop.