I’m a recovering addict, and I used to abuse Xanax

I’m a recovering addict. I used to use Xanax and other prescription drugs, as well as heroin. I’ve been clean for 10 months now, and I don’t use drugs at all. <br><br>I was a teenager when I got my first Xanax. I had gotten my wisdom teeth out a few days before, and my mom had gotten me a couple to help with the pain. She took one herself, and we were sitting in the living room. <br><br>After a while, my mom went to the kitchen to get me a glass of water. I don’t remember exactly what happened next, but when she came back, I don’t think I was awake anymore. I remember my head snapping forward and drooling all over the coffee table. <br><br>I remember that I woke up several hours later, and my mom was sitting next to me. She was crying. I don’t know why, because I was fine. I felt good. I had never felt good before. <br><br>From that point on, I was addicted. I took Xanax all the time. I’d buy it off of people at school, and I’d get high every day. I was a high school student, but I was more concerned with getting Xanax every morning than I was with school. <br><br>I’d take a bunch at a time, and then I’d go to class. Sometimes I’d forget what people were saying because I couldn’t focus. Sometimes I’d forget who I was or where I was. <br><br>I’d go home, and I’d sleep for hours. Sometimes I wouldn’t wake up the next day until late in the afternoon. <br><br>I didn’t do anything, I just existed. <br><br>I’d see people, and I wouldn’t care about them. I wouldn’t care about anything, except for my Xanax. <br><br>Sometimes I’d have trouble sleeping, so I’d take more Xanax. Sometimes I’d feel nervous or anxious, so I’d take more Xanax. <br><br>I took Xanax every time I could. I’d take a whole bottle in one sitting. I’d black out and forget about everything. I wouldn’t be able to remember anything about the past few days. I’d look at the phone and see a text that said “I love you” from my mom. I’d look at the calander, and I’d see that I hadn’t gotten out of bed in three days. <br><br>I’d see that I missed school, and I’d feel embarrassed, but I’d just shrug it off. I didn’t care. <br><br>I’d eat, but I wouldn’t eat much. Sometimes I wouldn’t eat for days. <br><br>I’d sleep for days, and I’d forget about everything. I’d forget about my problems, and I’d forget about my family. <br><br>I’d take Xanax with alcohol. I’d drink and drink, until I couldn’t feel anything anymore. <br><br>I’d take Xanax with other prescription drugs. I’d take a bunch of pills at once, and then I’d black out. <br><br>I’d take Xanax and heroin. I’d inject heroin, and then I’d take a couple Xanax. Sometimes I’d forget where I was. Sometimes I’d forget who I was. <br><br>I’d take Xanax every day, and I’d feel fine. <br><br>I’d take Xanax, and then I’d not care about anything. <br><br>I’d take Xanax, and then I’d not care about myself. <br><br>I’d take Xanax, and then I’d not care about anyone else. <br><br>I took Xanax until I didn’t need it anymore. <br><br>I stopped taking Xanax, and I didn’t feel good. I felt weird, and I didn’t like it. <br><br>I stopped taking Xanax, and I started doing better. I started going to the gym. I started working out. I started eating healthy. I started seeing a girl. <br><br>I stopped taking Xanax, and I stopped doing drugs. <br><br>I stopped taking Xanax, and I’m still not doing drugs. I’m still clean, and I still feel good.