I've been high for over a year

I pick up a hit of meth, a hit of weed, a hit of cocaine, a hit of opium, a hit of acid, a hit of psilocybin, a hit of shrooms, a hit of GBL, a hit of K, a hit of benzos, a hit of a lot of shit, 2-3 times a day. I've been doing this for 13 months now. I haven't been high for a day longer than 12 hours since I was 15 years old. I don't abuse the shit, but I am a daily user. <br><br>I've got a lot of problems with this drug use. I've lost friendships, I've lost my girlfriend, I've lost my family, I've lost my dog, I've lost my house, I lost my fucking shit because I spent all my fucking money on fucking dope and now I am a fucking slave to this shit. I haven't taken a shower in weeks, I've got fucking lice, I haven't fucking brushed my teeth in 3 days. I look in the mirror and I don't recognize the fucking person I see. I've been in and out of fucking jail, fucking fucking fucking fucking fucking fucking fucking shit I hate myself. I feel empty inside. I'm so tired. I can't get off. I don't even want to. This shit is the only thing that makes me feel good. I feel empty inside without it. I'm so tired of this shit.