I got a 13 year old boy high on meth and then raped him

This is a throw away account. <br><br>I am an 18 year old guy. I used to be in foster care from ages 13 to 18. At 13 I was diagnosed with severe ADHD and I took medication for it for years. I also had a bad drug problem as a teenager and I got kicked out of multiple foster homes.<br><br>At 13 I got placed in a group home and there I met “Michael”. I don’t remember much about him other than he was also in the home and was about 10 or 11 at the time. I used to spend hours in his room high on meth that I stole from the counselors. They were always high on opioids or something so they didn’t care.<br><br>I remember one day I gave Michael some meth to smoke and he was immediately high. I told him to give me some money and he said no. I was pissed and I raped him. I was 14 at the time.<br><br>The next day Michael didn’t recognize me. He said that he didn’t remember what happened and I told him I was just joking around. From then on I never spoke to him again. <br><br>I never told anyone about it. I don’t remember if I ever thought about it again or not. <br><br>It’s been years and years since then and I still think about it. I am scared to tell anyone. I feel bad and I am scared.