I'm tired of this place

I've been here for quite a long time. I've been a passive lurker since 2013 and since then I've seen this sub change so much. I'm just so tired of it all. I've always been the type of girl who felt disgusted at the idea of feminism. I thought it was a big joke until I found this sub. I found comfort in this place to the point that I stopped speaking to men. It felt so good not having to deal with them. But with that positivity also came the negativity. I was in such a black pill state. I hated being a woman and I hated everyone around me. I realized I was starting to sound like that Karen woman who goes on r/redpill. I started to believe that the world is black and white and that the woman is a evil manipulator and the man is a sex crazed animal. I just got tired of this mindset and I couldn't handle it anymore. I'm tired of hating the world and I'm also tired of hating myself. I feel like this sub has really taken a toll on my mental health and I need to escape this blackpill mindset.