I'm a woman and I'm so tired of trying to be skinny to have value.

When I was 13, I went from a size 7 to a size 16 in a matter of months. People went from calling me cute to saying I looked like a pig with how bloated I was. I went to the doctor and they said I had a perforated ulcer (which I still have) and that I was developing a fatty liver. They said I had to get off sugary drinks and start working out. I wasn't even 14. I started going to the gym a little and drinking more water. I started eating more salads and veggies. I stopped eating fast food and kept myself busy and got off my phone more.<br><br>Now I'm 19 and people are calling me "cute" again. They say I "got hot after high school" and I'm "still a little chubby but oh well". I'm tired of having to fit a certain standard to be seen as an attractive person. I hate being called "cute" because of my looks. I'm tired of people saying I went from ugly to pretty just because I lost weight. I don't know what size I am regularly because I haven't weighed myself in a while but I'm about a size 9 now. I'm tired of caring about my size and I don't want to hide myself because of how my body looks. I want to be able to have the confidence to wear shorts and a top without people staring at me. I'm tired of not being able to buy cute shirts because they make me look fat. I'm tired of it all.