I’m just so tired and sad and disappointed by this profession

I’m a student teacher w who has been doing the work of a regular teacher for most of the school year. I’m seriously debating just giving up now. I’m just so tired, I’m so sad and disappointed and anxious.<br><br>Grading and planning w work on top of having a class to teach and helping students with work they don’t understand the first 100 times I explain it is just SO much.<br><br>When I was a kid at school, I had at least 3 hours of work for homework a night and still had time to play outside with friends. If I gave my students 3 hours of work a night they’d have nervous breakdowns or just not do it and not care about their grades.<br><br>I have students who are really smart and capable, but they don’t care about school at all. I feel like I’m failing them, but there’s nothing I can do to make them care about school. I don’t know wtf is going to happen to them as adults w can work ethic like that. One of my brightest kids has straight Cs and acts like that’s ok.<br><br>I have students who are very kind and work very hard and try their best, but are just not smart. I’m not supposed to let them fail, I’m supposed to find a way to keep passing them, so that they can leave my class not understanding the material I teach but still having passed. I see how scared they are of not passing and I feel like a monster for giving them something they don’t deserve. I don’t know wtf is going to happen to them as adults w can work ethic like that. <br>I feel like I’m failing them too, but there’s nothing I can do to make them smarter. I’ve literally spent 100s of hours working one on one with them. I feel so guilty when they get good grades because I know they don’t deserve them. It’s like I’m being dishonest and it’s fucking me up.<br><br>I don’t know how real teachers do this every day for so much longer than I am. I’m literally making myself sick w work. I’m seriously just going to give up this career if I don’t get some help.