I just shoplifted 2 boxes of wine and got caught

I'm a mom of 2 little kids, and I'm an alcoholic<br>I just shoplifted 2 boxes of wine and got caught<br>I'm on my way to the police station to sit in a cell until I can see a judge to set a bond<br>My kids are 2 and almost 4 and my husband is on a trip for work<br>I got products from 2 different companies and the value is almost $400<br>I don't know what to do because I don't have money for the bond or lawyer.. I have a disability income of only $800 a month and my husband makes enough to cover expenses but we don't have enough left over to cover the fees that will come with this<br>I'm so worried about my kids and I don't know what to do<br>I just got a dui last week and I'm still on probation for my last dui<br>I don't know what to do because I don't want to lose my kids but I can't stop drinking long enough to get my life together<br><br>I'm so scared and saddened and my husband is very angry<br><br>What should I do?<br><br>Edit: <br>Since people have asked, I am eligible for a public defender so I don't think I'll need to pay for a lawyer but I'm going to try to pay for one so that I can try to keep my record clean and get a better outcome<br><br>I don't know what the fees will be.. I will most likely have to do community service and pay court fees and fines. I did this in a different county than where I live so I don't know the laws here but where I live, you are allowed to do community service for court fees and fines. <br><br>I know some people are saying to do the crime, do the time. And that's true. But my kids are my biggest concern. I am the primary bread winner in my house and if I go away, my husband will have to quit his job to take care of the kids and if I lose my disability income, we won't have any money at all. And since I've been to jail multiple times, there's no guarantee I will be able to get my disability income back when I am released from prison/jail. <br><br>I'm just trying to figure out my best options and not lose my kids. I know people have addictions and still function normally.. but I'm in the process of trying to get better and I haven't gotten there yet. I have been drinking since I was 15 and I've been arrested 10 times and have 2 dui's. I'm not trying to play the victim but I'm asking for advice and support because I am really scared and my life is upside down.