My mom says she wants a girl. She hates boys. I'm a boy.

My sister (15) and I (17) just discovered some super disturbing social media posts from my mom a few months ago. My mom was talking to my aunt (my dad's older sister) about how she wants a girl, and my aunt said something along the lines of 'Well, maybe you can have another baby' and my mom said something like 'I'll do it if I can have a girl.'<br><br>I'm guy, and my sister is a girl. I'm the oldest child.<br><br>I'm not sure where the whole 'I want a girl/I have a girl' thing is going, but I know my mom is saying that she wants a girl and not a boy.<br><br>I showed this to my sister, and she didn't seem to mind much. She just said that my mom probably regrets having a boy. I feel like it's because my mom doesn't like the fact that I'm gay. She doesn't like the fact that I'm the oldest boy, and she wants a girl, just because she hates boys.<br><br>It feels so humiliating and sad. I know I'm not just a baby to her, but it feels so wrong. It's like I'm a dog that she doesn't like, but at least I'm a pet.<br><br>I don't know what to think about this whole thing. A part of me feels like getting back at my mom, just to make her feel bad too.<br><br>My sister and I actually have a great relationship. We're super close, and I think I might be a little more mature than she is (no offense to her). She's still super sweet, and sometimes I feel sad for her, but she's super cute and awesome.<br><br>I've never been the kind of person to throw tantrums or start drama, but I've never liked my mom, even as a guy. She's super controlling and strict.<br><br>I hope this doesn't sound like a weird rant, but I feel like I just needed to vent my feelings about this stupid situation.