Got my first kiss from a 140-pound girl

This is my first kiss in my entire life. I'm 27 and I've never been in a relationship before, and I'm 5'4 and 400 lbs, so I'm not exactly a catch for most. At least, I thought I wasn't.<br><br>Last night, one of my coworkers (she's an engineer and I'm an engineer too, so we have a lot of contact with each other) was coming from the gym when I was leaving the office. She wanted to walk me to the train, and we got to talking about our jobs and our investments, and how the current recession is going to affect our generation, and we just really got along. <br><br>So I brought up that I watched her dating life on Instagram, and she brought up how she recently bought a new apartment and is thinking about having kids. I told her I was looking forward to when she had kids, and she mentioned how she wasn't planning on having kids unless she was married, or found the right person to marry.<br><br>I only liked her as an engineer, but in that moment, I realized how I was very attracted to her, and I was kind of turned on by how feminine she looked in her gym outfit. I told her I only liked her as an engineer, but I couldn't deny how attracted I was to her. I told her that I knew I wasn't a catch, and I didn't think she'd have any interest in a 400-pound guy, and she looked at me with these huge eyes and said I was just as attractive as she was. <br><br>So she told me that she wasn't turned off by my weight, and she wanted to try dating me, and I said fine, so we went to her apartment. We spent the first part of the night cooking for each other, and she made these Creole fish tacos that were amazing, and I made some fried chicken for her. <br><br>I was so nervous, I was shaking, but I was a little more confident now. She's really pretty, and she looked even more beautiful in her dress. It scared me how much I wanted to be with her, and I was so worried I was going to mess it up. I was so worried about hurting her, and causing her to not like me anymore. I was so worried that she was turned off by how I looked, and how unattractive I was to her, but she kept reassuring me that I was still attractive. <br><br>But I couldn't let it go. I couldn't let go of how I felt inside. I knew that I was too big for her, and that I couldn't date her, because it was a little over my weight. I told her I didn't think we were compatible, and she told me she didn't care, and that she wanted to be with me even if I was 500 pounds, which only made me even more attracted to her. <br><br>But I still couldn't let go of this fear, and I still couldn't let go of how I felt. I told her I wasn't a catch, and that she could be with a lot of guys who were more attractive than me. She told me that I was still attractive and that I only liked her as an engineer, but I couldn't deny how much I wanted her. <br><br>So she told me that she didn't want to be with anyone else, and that I was the only one she was attracted to. She told me she was going to only date me, even if I never lost a pound. She told me that I was enough, and that she loved me. I told her I loved her, too, and I told her that I wasn't going to lose any weight, and I was going to accept myself at my size. <br><br>So we went to bed, and we just cuddled together, and she told me she loved me. She told me I was beautiful, and that she loved my body. She asked if she could see my stomach, and I was so nervous, but I finally was brave enough to let go of this body image thing and I pulled up my shirt. <br><br>I was so nervous, I was shaking, but she just reached out and touched my belly. She looked at me, and she said it was beautiful. I asked if she wanted to touch my stomach again, and she said yes. I lifted up my shirt, and she just ran her fingers up and down my belly. <br><br>I was so nervous, but I let go of my fear, and I just enjoyed the moment, and I let go of my weight. I realized that I was still attractive, and that I could find love at any size. I realized that I didn't have to be afraid, and I could just enjoy the moment. <br><br>After a few minutes, she leaned in, and she kissed me. She kissed me, and I felt this rush of love, and I felt this rush of excitement. I felt this rush of joy, and I just leaned into the kiss. I kissed her back, and I felt this rush of love. <br><br>She kissed me, and she held me close. I felt this rush of happiness, and I felt this rush of joy. I felt like I was on cloud nine, and I felt like I was floating. <br><br>After a few minutes, she told me she loved me again. She told me I was beautiful, and that she loved my body. She asked if she could touch my belly again, and I said yes. She ran her fingers up and down my belly, and I felt this rush of love. <br><br>I was so nervous, but I let go of my fear, and I just enjoyed the moment, and I let go of my weight. I realized that I was still attractive, and that I could find love at any size. I realized that I didn't have to be afraid, and I could just enjoy the moment. <br><br>She told me that she loved me, and that she wanted to be with me forever. She told me she wanted to marry me, and she wanted to have kids with me. I told her I loved her, too, and I told her I wanted to marry her and have kids with her. <br><br>So we got married, and we had kids, and I was so happy. I was so happy to have found someone who loved me, and who wanted to be with me at any size. I was so happy to have found someone who loved my belly, and who wanted to touch it all the time.