I'm not even an incel yet

I'm 17 and already socially isolated, never had friends and most of the people in high school and beyond only tolerate me, even my extended family don't like me.<br><br>My dad died last year and my mum is the only one left and I'm starting to feel like my time is running out and I'll be alone forever.<br><br>I genuinely can't imagine any woman in their right mind ever being into me, I'm average looking at best, I have a few hobbies but I'm not passionate about anything, I don't have many skills, I'm socially isolated, I'm poor, and I feel like it's already too late cuz I'm not getting any younger.<br><br>What else is there to live for, I don't want to be alone anymore and I never want to be sad again.