I slept with a 4 last night and I still woke up feeling depressed

I never thought of myself as particularly ugly, probably a 7 or 8. I'm very attractive in certain ways. I met this girl and she was an absolute FOUR. She was overweight, very short, had acne, and crooked teeth. She had no curves whatsoever. She looked like a boy with some slight padding. But I was horny and I just wanted sex. We went to my bed and I was praying that she would be at least good in bed. I was wrong. We did just vanilla boring sex with her on her back with me on top of her. I haven't cum so quick in my life. I was done in 3 minutes. I couldn't even get her off with my fingers or mouth, I had to send her home unsatisfied. I woke up this morning with my depression and anxiety worse than ever. I don't get why my life is this way. I feel trapped.<br><br>EDIT: I didn't mean the girl was a literal 4 with deformed features. That would make me a monster to get angry at. I meant that she didn't have the typical features that people in my area find attractive.