what do I do with my cocaine?

I was on a trip and I wanted to try cocaine. I got some from someone at a rave I went to and I've had it for a couple of days. I don't know if I should try it or just dispose of it. <br><br>I'm 19 and I've never done coke or any kind of hard drug like that before. I did do shrooms and I loved them. We were taking the trip to take a break from our mental health. I had been dealing with a lot of intrusive thoughts and I found it really helpful to use drugs to take my mind off of it and have a really good time.<br><br>I'm afraid of coke though. I don't want to do it because it's addictive. I'm already dealing with addiction. There are drugs that are really hard to stop taking which makes it even harder to stop thinking about things. I don't want to destroy myself.<br><br>I don't know if I should do it. I could take one hit and never use it again, just see what it's like. But I don't want to do it.<br><br>Conversely, I could just destroy it. I'm wondering if I should just get rid of it. I've been trying to overcome my anxiety but I'm worried about the legal implications to this. Is it illegal to destroy drugs? Is it illegal to have drugs if you weren't the one who sold them or bought them? I'm also worried about the environmental implications. I don't want to put it in the trash.<br><br>I don't know what to do.