I have never felt my life more pathetic than I just did right now.

The drunk guy on the street sprayed a bit of water on me while I was walking past. In that moment, my life flashed before my eyes. I thought about the reality that I am not as successful as I wanted to be by my age. I thought about how my life is not going in the direction I want. <br><br>Never in my life have I felt so pathetic. The moment the water sprayed onto me was a wake up call. I am not the person I thought I would be at my age. I am not the person I wanted to be. I felt completely pathetic and useless. <br><br>From a certain point of view, the drunk guy on the street was right. "You can fucking do nothing about it?" was the last thing he said to me. I am not capable of doing anything about it. I realized at that moment that I am not who I thought I was. I felt like such a piece of shit. What an idiot I am. I am such a loser.<br><br>I am now home, sitting in the dark with a glass of wine. No one truly loves me. All I have is my cat.<br><br>I can not help myself. I am insecure and weak. I have no idea what I did to deserve this life of mine.<br><br>Life is disrespectful and unfair. The reality is that our lives are insignificant. We are on this planet for what? To suffer? To hate? To cry? To fuck up? <br><br>What have I done to deserve this? I don't know. <br><br>We are all pathetic. Life is pathetic. Everyone is pathetic.<br><br>Yes, you can fuck a jackhammer and it will do nothing about it.