Being a LARPcel with a girlfriends feels worse

I’m an LARPcel who had a girlfriend for 3 months, I broke up with her coz she was too clingy and I blocked her a few weeks ago and I haven’t felt good since, before I had the girlfriend I felt bad that I was too ugly and didn’t have one but when I had one I just felt worse, I don’t want to be near any girls after that or it will just fuck with my head worse and I’m just gonna be on my own not doing anything else, it’s been like that for months and I don’t know what to do, I’m depressed and I don’t wanna be around people.