I didn’t give a fuck about my wife’s pregnancy

I am a dad of one year old daughter and the whole motherhood journey was the worst time of my life. I still remember having the blue screened phone towards my face when my wife had a miscarriage 2 years ago. I never wanted any kids and never wanted to start a family. For the sake of my marriage, I agreed to have one. If I am being honest, the whole process of my wife being pregnant was just about tolerating it. I didn’t take any interests in her, I didn’t go to any appointments, I didn’t see the birth and I didn’t see any baby scans. I only saw my daughter when she was born. I don’t regret any of it, it got my marriage back on track (it was on the rocks because I didn’t want kids). But I don’t like the fact that I didn’t give a fuck.