Maybe it's time for Chambers to shut this sub down?

Strange as it may sound. I have never found a place where I like to visit so much and have to regret it as much. This sub has taught me so much, it is incredible how true some things are' I found sources for this sub in real life. I heard a lot of stories from friends who are police officers, soldiers and other professions that are not open about their work' I have to say' I was fine with it all, until now. I'm German and I'm not sure if there are any other Germans here' I have never experienced anything like this in Germany. Germany is very clean, I have never seen a rat here, but I am currently on vacation in another EU country. I had never seen a rat before in my life, I saw' it is disgusting. I have to ask myself what is happening in my head. Before I was a very happy, sociable person, I felt very comfortable and happy in this world. Recently it has become more and more something that I do not recognize. I am constantly on edge, I am constantly wondering' what if? And how? Lately I have been thinking about death a lot. What comes after death' what is the purpose of life' what would I even be doing in heaven. I have lost my faith in God, I do not believe in him at all anymore. That's not how I want to' But I just can't believe in it anymore. <br><br>It's like my head is constantly thinking about the worst case scenario. I'm constantly stressed and I can never relax. I have lost my interest in my hobbies, I am sad, I always wonder' why do I even work. I'm just going to die' and then it's all over. If anyone has ideas on how to get rid of this constant stress' I would be grateful' <br><br>I was thinking about suicide, but I don't want to' I'm not sure' why.