I'm 14 and i started doing mescaline 4 months ago

I am a porn addict and i live in a unhappy home always watching my drunk parents yell at each other and my dad beat me every 2 months because i don't respect the rules and i have mixing feelings because i don't know if i should love him or hate him (that always hurts me), everything was going downhill until i met a 17yo druggie and it change my life, he introduces to drugs and i never felt better it help me change my mixing feelings for a clarity feeling and it make me feel more aware of my surroundings, he got me started with weed and we are roomies now he took care of me for 4 months i started drinking alcohol and started smoking more weed and now started using mescaline (it's like a spice of the weed) and i don't feel bad and i became more social and mixing with people it's like a dream come true i started hugging people and saying i love you to my roomie always and he take care of me he got me a job and i'm making money i don't feel alone no more and it feels amazing to have that feeling of freedom even if drugs are a bad thing in society, all i can say is i'm happy and more aware of my surroundings and i found a friend always