I just wanna be a simp

For so long I believed that women were the root of all evil, and that they were the enemy—the reason why men are so screwed up. But the more I read, the more I see that it’s actually men who fuck up the world. Men start wars. Men are the aggressors, always. Men rape and abuse. Men are also just so hard on each other, it’s exhausting. If you don’t fit within the traditional mould of masculinity, then you’re ostracized, or mocked, and worse. Men are the reason why I’ve always felt small and weak, like I couldn’t be myself, like I had to be strong, to fight. If I’m too small, I get laughed at, beat up, mocked and abused. I’ve been beaten up so many times because I’m weak, I’ve even been raped, fucked in the ass—by men. I’ve not a single male friend, all my friends are women, and they have never made me feel small, never hurt me. They’ve been supportive, they’ve protected me for so long. They’ve been my people. On the other hand, I regret to say that every man I’ve ever known has hurt me in one way or another. I regret to say that I’ve allowed men to take up so much space in my heart, they’ve made me feel so much pain, so much hurt. Now, I’m not saying they’re all evil, and that they’re all bad—I’ve seen how men can love, how men can support each other, even though it’s rare. But I mean, I guess this is just what I’ve personally seen in my life. But I don’t want to hate men, I don’t want to hate anyone. I feel like if I hate men, I’m just doing what they’ve done to me—I’m just hating myself, I’m just hating others. I want to be a better person, I don’t want to carry this regret, this pain, this hurt—it’s not mine to keep, it’s not mine to carry, it’s not mine to hate. If I hate, I just become them—I just become a man.<br><br>I just want to be myself. But men don’t allow me to be myself, they don’t allow me to be me, they don’t even allow me to be gay. And that’s why I just want to be a simp, you know—I want to support a woman wholeheartedly, I want to be a good person, I want to help others, I want to love without any strings attached—I don’t want to be like them, I don’t want to be a man.