I've been with my 23f wife for 10 years and it's never gotten better

It's just never gotten better. We met in college. I was her first. I told her I was going to proposal her, but never followed through. She made me a custom ring out of beads and called it a "bead-ucery". I loved that and loved her. She was a homecoming queen in high school, I was always a little chubby and had bad acne.<br><br>Fast forward to now, we're in our 30s. I'm lean, fairly good looking, and have great hair. I make good money and am pretty successful in my career. But it just feels so... normal. Like we're roommates. We have no common interests, and never did. She's really into art and crafts. I like to read and play instruments.<br><br>We have two kids, a boy and a girl. The kid's are my whole world. My son is more like me and I was always excited for him. He's 9 and starting to get interested in instruments. My daughter is more like his mother. She's sweet, and has a big heart. But she's very interested in makeup and fashion. I encourage it and all, but it just seems so superficial.<br><br>I love my kids but I always wished I had a wife that I could connect with. I feel so lonely in this marriage. I know I'll never leave, but it just seems so... mundane. It doesn't feel like a marriage. It feels more like a business partnership.<br><br>I stay home with the kids, she works outside the home. I cook and clean. I take care of the finances. I always have. I just don't understand how it got so bad. I love her, I always have. But she just seems so unhappy. She gets angry at the slightest thing. And I always feel like a child around her.<br><br>I don't know what to do. I don't want a divorce. But I'd love to have someone to share my life with. I know I'm probably not that attractive. I don't believe I am anyway. But I always thought I was a nice guy. I know I'm not the nicest guy. I'm not cruel or abusive, but I won't go out of my way to be nice to someone I don't like.<br><br>I hate that I feel this way. I really do. I always thought I would have a great marriage and family. I guess I didn't work out that way. So now I just have to suck it up and deal with it.<br><br>&#x200B;