i hate that people can get away with anything when they want to

i’m 15, and i just want to say “i’m sorry” for the following stories. <br><br>i came out as bi to my best friend about 6 months ago, and i was excited to show my pride. we were co-starring in a play together, and while we were waiting for the director to announce our acceptance, i asked my best friend to marry me. in all of that excitement, my best friend said “yes.” after we were casted, she and i got dressed up and got our legal marriage license (we were able to get legally married because i am transmasc, and my real irl name is female).<br><br>we weren’t “married” in the sense that we did a ceremony, but we told our families that we were married, and we wanted to have the appropriate paperwork to show. we also wanted to be able to share health insurance some day, and to be able to show off our pride and happiness for each other; after all, my best friend was never transphobic or homophobic towards me. well, about 4 months later we had our school play and i ended up becoming a showstopper, and because of it i got a lot of recognition and great interactions from people. my “wife” and i were also good friends, and we ended up not only being co-stars, but best friends too. well, after about 6 months of being married, my “wife” came to my house and broke up with me. and i was shocked. i asked why, but she said she didn’t have to tell me. <br><br>back in march, i started a club at my school. i had an idea for a club that centered around teaching lgbtq+ history to students, and i got permission from my principal to start the club. i gathered a group of students in the library during lunch, and we started planning for the school board to approve the club. after about 2 weeks, the club was approved and we were able to start having meetings. me and my “wife” were also still best friends, and we had a great time during meetings. <br><br>back in november, we had an election for the school play. i was 14 back then, and my “wife” was 15. i had been taking theatre arts classes for 6 years already, and my “wife” was 5 years younger than me in classes. but as much as i didn’t want to do this, i ended up becoming the lead in the play. i was excited, but i was still nervous and didn’t know if i could do it. <br><br>well, my “wife” applied for the role of assistant director, and she got the 3rd place position. my “wife” wanted to be assistant director because she secretly didn’t know too much about theatre, and she wanted to learn more. but because i was a theatre addict, my “wife” ended up being my director. i was confused, and when i asked the director why, she told me “a senior student in theatre arts can always be a director,” and then she just walked away.<br><br>so, me and my “wife” were the 2 main stars in the play, and i was also the person who was playing the main character. this time, my “wife” played the villain, and she also directed me for my character. but as much as i didn’t want to say this, my “wife” was a horrible director and a horrible actor. my friends and i had to teach her what to do all of the time, and she had to ask the director for advice on what to do whenever we did a scene together. <br><br>i asked her if she was okay, but she said she was. fast forward to a month later, the day before the play, i asked her again if she was okay because she was acting so strangely. she still claimed to be okay, but then she said something that made me question her for the rest of my life. <br>“baby, don’t you want to be a star? you’re the centre of attention, and all of the attention is on you. i can’t remember anything because i’m so jealous of you.” <br><br>me and my “wife” ended up doing the play perfectly, and we both got applause after. i was happy, but when we were getting our flowers and stuff, she whispered in my ear “don’t think you’re superior to me just because you’re a star.” and that’s when it clicked in my head that my “wife” was jealous of me. <br><br>i came home in the car, with my mum, and i broke down crying. i couldn’t take it anymore. i pulled out my phone, and i sent my “wife” a text message that i regret and i don’t regret at the same time. <br>“did you ever love me, or was it just a cruel joke to you?” <br><br>i was expecting her to call me and scream at me, but she just told me to meet her at the park. she got there, and she handed me a letter. after i read the letter, i was speechless. the letter said this, in order, word for word: <br><br>“When i met you, i was only 11 years old. i thought you were cool, and i wanted to marry you. i never intended on marrying you when i said it, and i was happy when you said yes. when we were married, i felt like i was only your pride and joy. it was cool in the beginning. i felt like a pretty princess. but when you started to get in plays and get popular, you started to change. i felt like i wasn’t important to you anymore, and i was just a “pride” token. i felt like you only loved me for the pride and because you co-starred with me. you started having “best friends” who weren’t me, and you started to forget about me. i’m happy you are doing well, and i’m happy you see yourself doing well, but you’re changing too much and too fast. i’m not happy anymore, and i don’t think i can love you anymore. and in case you’re wondering, i never intended on loving you for your whole life. and by the way, i’m straight.”<br><br>i read the letter, and i was speechless. i didn’t know what to say. <br><br>back in march, me and my “wife” met up with the lgbtq+ history club. we 2 had the club together, and we enjoyed teaching students all about lgbtq+ history. <br><br>but then, my “wife” came to my house in april, and she told me she couldn’t be in the club anymore. i asked why, but she didn’t tell me. i was co-founder of the club, and she was the other. i asked if she would still want to be co-founder, and she said no. i ended up becoming co-founder with my friends, and we ended up changing the name of the club. <br><br>now, back in about january, we had a board meeting at school. in this meeting, a new principal was announced. my “wife’s” mother was the new principal. <br><br>but yesterday, my friends and i had a meeting with the new principal. she told us that the lgbtq+ history club was going to be shut down, and it was going to be a club for my “wife.” the principal told us that she was shutting it down because it was “racist,” and the club’s name was changed to “rainbow kids club” 4 months ago. <br><br>i had no way to stop it, and me and my friends said our goodbyes. i told my students that they were my pride and joy, and that they always will be. <br><br>i’m sorry, because this is the end of rainbow kids club. goodnight.