If I get caught, I'm gonna make it worse for myself by unapologetically telling security that it's just a stupid job, and acting belligerent and rude to the police too

I've been jobless for 4 months, and haven't been able to find one. I've been on the verge of homelessness for months. I've resorted to shoplifting food, because fuck you dude, I need to eat. I'm sick to my stomach of having nothing. I'm sick of this goddamn system that lets people starve to death. I'm sick of how nobody gives a fuck. I've given up on trying to get out of this shit hole. I've given up on the idea that life can get better for me. If I'm gonna get caught, I'm gonna do my best to make the situation worse... just to spite them.