I'm a Lithuanian that made it to university in England

This is a throwaway account, I made it to protect my privacy. I'm gonna keep this post as concise as possible.<br><br>I'm studying in the UK. Agenda of my post is to discuss the fate of my homeland. I'm genuinely disappointed with the society of the homeland country. I was forced to leave my country after secondary school as the university education of my homeland turned me down for too many times. Have you been in the position where you worked hard, worked your butt off and was never given a chance? I was. At the age of 18, I was rejected from two most prestigious universities in my homeland. It was obvious to me where to apply and who the competition was. I was more motivated and curious about the world than the rest of my classmates, I was too smart to be in the class I studied in and knew answers to most of questions before they were even asked. It was obvious that I would study in the top of my homeland top universities. I was the best in my class, worked for the highest grades, stayed after school, always helped my classmates but it never mattered. Even now I do not understand why I was rejected. And I'm not gonna lie, that rejection did hurt. Have you been in the position where you worked hard for a period of time, was rejected for the work you did, you're out of cash, never got a job and it all hurt? I was. It was the hardest part of my life.<br><br>And you're not gonna believe it, but the same people who could not afford to help me and help my homeland turned me down for the opportunity. They rejected me for the chance to improve my homeland as well. And I'm gonna keep it simple again, they were my enemies. Just as I would never be lazy, they would never want to make friends or improve my country. They were lazy, I was motivated. They were jealous, I was admired. They wanted to be me, I wanted to be them as well. They loved to spend their money on empty things like alcohol and unnecessary accessories. I never wanted to do that. I always had a different perspective on life. I always wanted to live life free of stress and worry. And that's what I'm trying to achieve in England. I want to live life free from stress and worry. I always wanted to live in peace as well. And I'm trying to achieve this goal in England as well too. I want to live in peace and improve my life. And that's all I want. And that's what everyone wants. But my homeland country does not want this. They want to live life in pain and loneliness.<br><br>I went to England to come back to Lithuania to improve it, but it's too late, I've made my mind. I'm getting a degree from the top university, I have a job on campus and I just love my life here. I have job opportunities, I made friends with too many people from too many countries, I just love everything about England. I've made my mind to never come back and live in Lithuania. I just love England too much. The people of England are good, I like it here more than I liked in Lithuania. I want to improve the life of the people of England. I want to live and enjoy life in England. There would be no fun for me to live in Lithuania. Nobody would want to live in Lithuania as well. Nobody wants to live in poverty and struggle. It's too late. It's too late to make me come back. I'm too far gone as well. And I'm happy about it.<br><br>I'm sorry that I did not get too many chances in my life. I'm sorry that I could not contribute to the welfare of my homeland. I'm sorry but that's all just a coincidence. I did not ask to live in this world. I did not ask to live in Lithuania. I did not ask to be born, but here I am. And it's not my fault that I was born in Lithuania. It's not my fault that they were jealous of me and my life. It's not my fault. I'm sorry.<br><br>I'm sorry for all of us who are living in poverty and crave for a human life. I'm sorry. It was too long. But I'm not gonna apologize anymore. I'm done. This post is done. And I'm done with my homeland. I'm sorry but it's too late to change anything. I will never come back to my homeland. I will never come back and live there again. Thank you for reading.<br><br>Edit: I'm sorry for the mistakes, I was in a bittersweet mood while writing this post. I'm not gonna let my homeland take me down again. I'm not gonna let my homeland ruin my life. I'm not gonna let my homeland to destroy my life. I'm not gonna let my homeland to make me cry tears of pain and suffering. I'm not gonna let my homeland to destroy my life. I'm not gonna let my homeland to make me cry tears of pain and suffering. I'm not gonna let my homeland to destroy my life. I'm not gonna let my homeland to destroy my life.<br><br>I'm strong enough to not let my homeland win. I'm too strong. And I'm too smart.