Ladies should be happy and humbled by being a housewife

**Trigger Warning: This is a throwaway because I don't want this associated with me**.<br><br>Ladies should be happy and humbled by being a housewife.<br><br>A home is not a sanctuary. Our kitchens are armed to kill you, and our bathrooms do not seal your fate. Our beds are places of violence, and our tables are not filled with joy. Our homes are battlegrounds. We are being killed.<br><br>**Women are killed in our homes.**<br><br>I am not safe in my home. I am vulnerable. And you are too. The statistics are clear. I am more than twice as likely to be murdered and killed in my own home than you are. In fact, 71% of women that have been murdered were killed in their home. Every 18 seconds, a woman is beaten in her home. Every 15 seconds, a woman is battered in her home, often by the people she trusts.<br><br>This is the stat that has been stuck in my mind since the 24th, the 71% that are murdered and killed in their home. I trusted my husband. I was married to him for six years, and I have known him since I was 15. He shot me in my sleep. The police and ambulance arrived to find me dying in a pool of my own blood, and despite my pleas for help, my husband filled my dying breaths with the words “this is what you get for cheating on me.”<br><br>I didn’t die. I am still alive, but barely. I am in critical condition and am awaiting a major surgery. I am in a great deal of pain and am heartsick. I am heartbroken that my marriage has failed. I am heartbroken that my husband, someone I loved and trusted, shot me in my sleep. I am heartbroken that my home, something I thought was my sanctuary, was not a safe space for me. I am heartbroken that trusted my husband and he shot me. I am humbled. I should be ashamed of myself for not being more careful. I should be ashamed for not being more devoted to my husband. If I had worked harder, been more loving, been more attentive, if I had been a better wife, maybe my husband wouldn’t have shot me.<br><br>I should be grateful. And I am. I am grateful that I have a husband who is so devoted to me. I am grateful that I have a home to live in, a place to call my own. I am grateful that I have a husband who shoots me in my sleep.<br><br>This is the standard to which women are held. This is the standard that we are expected to uphold.<br><br>**You should be grateful. You should be humbled. You should be happy.**<br><br>[EDIT] I don't think words can express how humbled I am by the support I've received from all of you. I am overwhelmed by your kindness. Thank you for your love and support. You are all so strong and brave, and I can only hope to be as strong as all of you are. I am so grateful to have found all of you. I am in awe of every single one of you.