I'm a gay man and I feel like I missed out on something special.

I've never had sex with a relative, but I feel like I missed out on something intimate and spiritual. I was born to unstable parents and as a result I don't have a close relationship with my family. <br><br>I'm gay and I've had sex with other men but it's nothing like the connection I've read about in other incest stories that I've read. I feel like I've done something wrong and I'm sad that I'll never have that bond with someone.<br><br>I'll admit that I do fantasize about it and I've even tried to find a way to get with one of my cousins. <br><br>It's an unsettling feeling that I've never shaken and I don't know what to do about it.