"THERE'S NO REASON TO BE A BACHELOR AT 30 YEARS OLD."

As a childhood-elder 27 y/o with no friends or family, I don't bother attending parties anymore. I just hang around the edges of the room and listen to the "family men" talk about how I would be better off dead for being single at my age. I don't own a car or cellphone. I'm just a resentful wage slave who is planning to die alone, why would I be hanging out in a group of retards who value other humans over me when I've been alone for over 20 years now.<br><br>I don't do anything at all anymore. I hate going outside. It's like I'm torturing myself. Everyone I see is either part of a couple or a family. When I'm out and about I always see 2 men talking to each other. All I can think about it how it's just not for me. When I'm sitting in public in absolute silence, I have to pretend that I'm not torturing myself. People laugh and smile with each other all around me and I'm just over here planning my suicide.<br><br>I've just recently bought another dog, so it's just 2 of us. When I'm sitting there thinking about this, my dog's wagging tail always hits me. I do not want that in anyone else. I don't want to see anyone else's face or hear anyone else's voice. I don't want to be near anyone. I just want to die alone.<br><br>I've never in my life gone on a date. Never had sex. Never had any friends. I've never said more than 2 sentences to a woman. I don't know what to do in life anymore. Everything just feels so pointless and empty.