I'm in love with my sister

I'm going to go on a few tangents, but my main point is that I'm in love with my sister.<br><br>So not long ago I was watching videos of monogamous relationships where the man and woman were also siblings. I'm not going to lie it kind of got me horny. It made me think of my sister. Growing up as a child I would always try to get a reaction out of her, I would pull her hair and cause her to throw her water bottle at me. I also remember the first time I got a boner and I didn't really understand what was happening. My sister was right in front of me and she was wearing a skirt, I don't think she was wearing underwear. Anyways I felt the need to show her that I had a boner in my pants. She just looked in embarrassment as I showed it to her. She was right to be embarrassed, and I happen to think it's a little embarrassing as well.<br><br><br>I have been in two relationships, I gave oral sex to both partners, and I received none from them. I don't understand how anyone could enjoy it, it's genuinely disgusting. My sister is a sweet girl with long red hair and blue eyes. I genuinely don't understand how a man could want anything else. I like the idea of her being proud to give me oral and swallowing my semen. I also like the idea of having sex with her I imagine she would be tight. Here's the thing though. I'm 21 and she's 19, I don't actually remember seeing her in a sexual light until she was 17. Before then she was just my annoying little sister. I think that's reason enough for me to go on with my life and look for a partner in the dating scene.<br><br><br>I have been interested in her sexually for 3 years, and as you know I haven't forgotten about it yet. I think it's time for me to make a move, I'm not sure how to go about doing that without ruining our relationship. I've had sexual thoughts about my sister before but I felt more ashamed about it. In recent months I have been okay with my feelings and have accepted them. I want to try to have sex with my sister, I don't think it's wrong and I don't think it's a sin. I don't think it's something to be ashamed about, she's my flesh and blood as I am hers. I want to treat her right and have sex with her. I want to be her boyfriend and make her happy. We are very close in our relationship right now, I was going support her on this trip she's going to go on after she graduates college. We were going to stay in a hotel and she was going to sleep on my couch for a night. I felt like I wanted to hold her and feel her warmth, I felt like I wanted to kiss her. I just want to be able to give her the love that I have been holding back. I want her to see my penis in real life and she was going to. I just got really nervous, and I backed out of the trip. I couldn't do it. <br><br><br>I'm planning on telling her that I love her, she's been asking me what's wrong and I just tell her I'm stressed. I don't know how well she will react. I am planning on buying a ring for her. She deserves to have the love I have for her. She's my sister but I felt like you could use the term girlfriend for her. She's my girlfriend, the one I love, the one I want to marry, the one I want to have sex with. She's my life, my blood, my reason. I'm not ashamed about it, that's just how I feel.