My 13 year old cousin is dead.

He killed himself last night, and I am devastated. I did not know he was feeling so low that he had to do what he did. I do not know what to do or how to feel right now. How do I cope with losing someone I love so much to suicide? He was my rock and he is gone. His father picked up his soul and gave him a proper burial. I love him so so so much and I hope he has a good life in the next world. I miss him so much. God bless his soul. <br>Edit; My cousin was gay. So many people in the comments are like "get professional help!!" but it's not like that where I live. I am 14. I am supposed to be like this as well. So many people in the comments are like "get professional help!!" but it's not like that where I live. I am 14. I am supposed to be like this as well. He was so nice and his death shocked me. I am thinking about killing myself right now. I like girls as well. My cousin was the only one who knew about my feelings for girls. I do not know what to do. I just want him back. I love him more than life itself.