I sneakily blessed someone tonight and I feel selfish.

My ex boyfriend and I are the best of friends. Last night he introduced me to his long time friend. He is 37 and very very hot. I was introduced to him for the first time in my life and I thought he was the hottest man I’ve ever laid eyes on. A lot of the times I get crushing on guys cause I think they are really hot, and not because I’m compatible with them. So I decided to sneakily bless him tonight because I feel bad for using guys as my crushes. I selfishly dont want to crush on him cause I just want to be friends. But I felt bad in case he would develop feelings for me if we were to be friends. So I decided to sneakily give him a spell tonight. But I feel bad and selfish. I feel like I have messed with his free will and I dont know what to do.