My friend groomed me into wanting to have sex with him

My friend (22M) and I (26M) have known each other for around 7 years now. It started with a simple friendship at first, but eventually he started seducing me romantically when I was 19. He would take pictures of himself and send them to me and would groom me into wanting to have sex with him. The grooming has been going on for several years now and I still haven't told him that I am gay. I am afraid that he will reject me if I ask him if he wants to have sex with me. I know I am not straight and I do have sexual attraction to men, but my family thinks it is wrong to be gay. So I have been hiding it from them.<br><br>The sexual attraction to men started when I was around 8 years old. I was masturbating in my bedroom, and I started thinking of boys in my class at school. I am ashamed of it and I know I must stop thinking about boys in a sexual way. However, I can't stop thinking about it. My sexual attraction to men has only strengthened over the years. It is hard to focus on anything else besides sex with boys.<br><br>My friend has been hinting that he wants to have sex with me by doing multiple seductive behaviors, and sometimes he would take off his shirt and show his bare chest. I am attracted to him and his behavior, but I am afraid that he will reject me if I want to have sex with him. I feel I am obligated to be straight, and I feel I have an urgent need to make sure I am not gay, at least for my family's sake.