Why I will never be able to move away from my wife

You all know the story of my fight in front of the divorce lawyer, but today I will never be able to leave her.<br><br>I'm not normally the kind of guy that checks my wife's phone while she's in the shower, but I had to review the chat of the day before yesterday.<br><br>She sent him a few photos and some messages of a rather intimate nature. I'm not jealous, but I was a bit annoyed.<br><br>Over dinner I asked her if she had met him.<br><br>She said no.<br><br>I got a bit chilly and asked her why she was sending him intimate photos.<br><br>She said it was for him to "publish" and asked me if I wanted to know why.<br><br>I nodded and she said that he was going to publish them in a book, so after he is gone, I can open the drawer and see that the girls I have been dreaming about for years have been mine.<br><br>I'm at home, I opened my front door and the girls I've always dreamed of have been mine.<br>I'm 35 now and have spent most of my life working hard.<br>I have been a good husband and a good father, I have never cheated on her, but when we were younger I wanted to have more excitement around me.<br>I wanted girls to fall in love with me, to be coveted, but I never cheated on her because I didn't want anyone to take advantage of me.<br><br>And not only that, I know that I am married, I have two daughters and a wife to support. I wasn't going to give up my family to fall into the arms of another woman.<br><br>And now I see that even if I wanted to, it's too late.<br><br>I have no chance of getting someone like her.<br><br>Over dinner I asked her if I could help with anything, if I could contribute to the creation of this book.<br><br>She said it's not possible, that she had already begun writing it two weeks ago and it's almost done.<br><br>I asked her if I could read it, but she said no, not yet.<br><br>I must complete it.<br><br>And I see, she has the confidence to believe in herself, even though she's not a writer.<br><br>**I will never be able to leave her, she is the most selfless person I have ever known.**<br><br>I want to be with her forever, not because I feel sorry for her, but because I admire her and I want to be with her.<br><br>I want to be her partner in this life and I want her to be my partner.