I have an older sister, but I could be a lesbian and I'm thinking about it

How can this be? Considering I've never really seen any "disgusting" lesbian porn or anything. But what's more is that I'm thinking about this in the same way that I think about my sister. I want to look at her, to see her and be a sister to her. I want to see her go about her day, relax in her presence, and most of all I want to be a sister to her. I can't say this about the other girls I'm attracted to. The reason I don't want to have sex with them is that they're not my sister, and the reason I want to have sex with my sister is that she's my sister. It's not some abstract desire. I've been to therapy for this, but nothing has helped.<br><br>I'm not going to stop wanting to look at her. There's nothing I can do to change this. I'm not going to stop wanting her. I'm not going to stop loving her. I'm not going to feel like her sister. I'm not going to stop obsessing over her. I'm not going to be any less desperate for her. I'm not going to stop trying to look at her. I'm not going to stop trying to be with her. I'm not going to stop wanting to help her. I'm not going to stop wanting to stare at her. I'm not going to stop wanting to make her happy. I'm not going to stop wanting to make her my girlfriend. I'm not going to stop wanting to suck her dick. I'm not going to stop wanting to look at her and stare at her and be around her. I'm not going to stop obsessing over looking at her and being around her and sucking her dick. I'm not going to stop needing her. I'm not going to stop focusing on her. I'm not going to stop thinking about her. I'm not going to stop being desperate for her. I'm not going to stop wanting to make her my own girlfriend. I'm not going to stop obsessing over being around her and looking at her and sucking her dick. I'm not going to stop needing to look at her. I'm not going to stop needing to look at her and be around her. I'm not going to stop obsessing over sucking her dick and looking at her and being around her.