I am a woman, I am 34 years old, I am overweight and after a long day of work I just want to get home, change into something comfortable, make some dinner for myself, have a glass of wine and watch whatever show or movie I want to watch.

This is a better life than what I've had the last 2 years. Being with a guy who cannot be left alone because he will start drinking and smoking instead of doing his school work, instead of going to his part time job. A guy who will beg me to come over and then he won't talk to me when I get there, he will just sit on the computer playing games and drinking. <br><br>I'll be cooking dinner and he will tell me "I'm starving" so I will fix him something and he will eat it in five minutes and I will ask "you're done already?" and he will say "yeah I was so fucking starved." Why did you wolf it down without even chewing if you were so fucking starved for so fucking long? Why wasn't chewing it enough? <br><br>And then I'm done eating and I will try to talk to him and he won't answer me and I will ask if he's okay and he just grunts at me and goes back to video games. I will actually pass him a note asking him if he is okay and he will scribble on it "I'm angry." Asking why will get me a response of "figure it out." <br><br>I hate my house but it is mine, it's better than his place and his roommates. He will smoke and drink when he's mad, but not just any amount. A liter bottle of Svedka will get him drunk after 2 days. He will smoke an entire pack of cigarettes in one day. He will make promises and not follow through. He says he will do something but he will actually go do something else, like he will promise to help me move my house one weekend and then he actually leaves with his friends to spend the weekend out of town but he still will actually tell me to "come on over" and I will drive an hour to get there and he will be passed out drunk in his bed and I will never see him and I will have to drive an hour to get home. <br><br>He will wake me up in the middle of the night and he will kick and throw me out of bed and he will call me a bitch and a whore and a slut. He will tell me "the reason I'm so mean to you is because you're a whore." He won't say why he thinks that, he won't tell me that story, no matter how much I ask him. He will say "I'm not gonna tell you." But he will just call me a whore. <br><br>I would bring groceries over to his house because I was living there most of the time, the groceries would get stolen. And my boyfriend would say "oh I sure do love your groceries, they're delicious."<br><br>I loved him so much, but I hated him for the way he treated me. He would be angry for something that happened years ago and he will take it out on me now. I would ask him why he was angry and he wouldn't tell me. He would ignore me for something I didn't do. <br><br>He would ask me why I was angry and I would tell him something like "I hate it when you get something for yourself before you get something for me. Do you know what I want? If you want a sandwich, I'm hungry too. Why don't you make a sandwich for me too?" He would get angry at me for saying that, like I was stupid for asking for that. He didn't do it anymore but he got fucking angry at me for asking. <br><br>I broke up with him over a year ago, but he still contacts me, even though I moved away and I have a new boyfriend and I don't want to hear from him ever again. I don't want to know what he's doing now, I don't want to know if he's okay, I don't care if he's okay. <br><br>I don't care about him. I am so much better off without him than I ever was with him. My life is better now and I am happy with my decisions. <br><br>I'm not gonna say I'm sorry for this, I'm not gonna apologize for what I'm about to say. If you contact women, if you continue to contact a woman after she has made it clear she's moved on, you're not an incel. If you truly cannot get a date with a woman, then stop messaging women you don't know, they're not gonna date you. If you are messaging women you don't know, you're just being weird as fuck. If you go to a bar and you try to talk to women then you are trying to get laid, you're not an incel. <br><br>I'm not gonna apologize for saying any of this. If you still live with your parents and you still want to get laid, get a job. Get an education. Do something to improve your life. Get an actual friend. Turn your life around. You can do something to improve your own life. <br><br>If you're messaging strangers and you're expecting to get laid, you're delusional. If you're messaging strangers and your conversation does not go well, that's your fault, not theirs.<br><br>You are weird. You will be alone. If you have a problem with that, then you need to turn your life around. You need friends, or professional help, or both. <br><br>I'm not interested in having a conversation about this. What I've said is final, I'm not changing my mind. It's not my problem how you feel about it.#####I wonder if this post is made by a typical woman or a ex-inCel woman.