I feel like I’m 99% there, but that 1% is stopping me from getting help

I know I need help. I can feel something’s wrong, and I know I’m not 100% right in the head anymore. But I’m not crazy enough to seek help. I’m not depressed enough, or anxious enough, or suicidal enough. But when I’m impaired, I know I can tell someone and they’ll take me seriously, because my depression and anxiety and the fact that I’m trying to kill myself are much more obvious. But when I’m sober, I can tell I’m not 100%. But I don’t feel crazy enough to tell a therapist.<br><br>I can tell something is wrong with me, but I don’t know what, and I don’t feel crazy enough to go to the doctor when I’m sober. I don’t know how to explain it to them. I know impaired I’m not a good judge of reality, but sober I’m impaired enough that I feel like I’m not a good judge of reality.<br><br>I just wish it was easier to talk to doctors about these things.