I am a medical intern at my local hospital, after spending 4 years in medical school I am starting to realize I hate being a doctor. What should I do?

I am in a fair bit of distress, I am currently on a rotation and have already gotten complaints from superiors about things I’ve done wrong. I only have two years left on my contract until I will have to pay back the U.S. army over 400,000 dollars for the scholarship I received. It is a service for scholarship type of deal, but I don’t think I can make it two more years as I am starting to crack. I am seriously considering tanking everything just to get out.<br><br>I am seriously considering simply not showing up to my next rotation and just accepting I will have to pay the money back. I didn’t know I hated being a doctor this badly until half way through med school. I feel I am just going through the motions at this point.<br><br>What should I do?<br><br>I feel guilty I am considering this because I got the scholarship specifically because I wanted to be a doctor. I feel like I am letting my family down, I’m only 28 and I feel like my whole life is over.<br><br>Thanks for any advice, I’m really just venting at this point.