I now last night I should have stayed home and played video games

I went out last night because my friend was having a few people over. I thought maybe that I would meet a new girl. I got there and waited for the party to begin. I figured that I would be the first one there last night. I was right. So I waited, and waited, and waited. People start to come only for me to realize that I know no one. There are a few people that I knew that I would be a third wheel last night. It got worse. A few women started to come, and I tried to make eye contact and get the last word in. However, the moment that I figured that they were looking for a man and wanted attention from them, they would stop looking at me and only look at one guy. Yes, I am sure that they knew him prior, but it was like they were competing with each other to see who could get the most attention. I have been in situations like this before, but last night was different. I felt like garbage last night because last night was different. I felt like the one that no one wanted. I asked the host how much longer that I had to stay to feel like I got an invite out of my system. He told me 20 minutes and I left only for a few hours later to get a text from him telling me that he hooked up with one of the two that were competing with each other.<br><br>I am going to stop here. I am done with trying to get out and meet people. I am done trying to date. If a woman wants me, she will have to make the move. I am done wasting my time thinking that I can be what a woman wants.