All of my exs are a burden to the society and I am proud of my achievements even though I am not living the good life

My first girlfriend was the most beautiful and loving girl when we were in high school. She was a cheerleader and I had just joined the host club which is quite popular in Japan. She used to sit next to me in class and would always laugh at my jokes since we were both in the same “baka” group at school with every other 2nd year student failing in most of their subjects. She gave her virginity to me the night before her birthday as a birthday gift and I was just a dumb high school kid who loved anime and never got a girlfriend. We dated for only 2 years and had a few more sexual encounters and we broke up after we started going to different colleges. She got pregnant 2 years later with a baby daddy who was a few years older than us and dropped out of college and now she has 2 kids and is a burden on the society by living on welfare.<br><br>My 2nd girlfriend was an hostess who worked in a bar not far from my house. She was beautiful but she was already a used good for the most part as her parents got divorced and she had to drop out of college to help with her mom and worked every night 6 days a week. She had still used her student loans and her debt was too high to handle with her minimum wage job and student loans. So I matched with her on tinder and asked her out and that how we meet. We had a one night stand and I asked her out on a date and we dated. We broke up 2 years later because she asked me to marry her and have a kid even though she was still paying off debt when I knew I was planning to get an MBA in the next 5 years and move to a different country and she didn’t want to and I wanted to live a better life than being mediocre it Japan for the next 50 years and it didn’t go as planned as I am now living in the US but I didn’t know that back in the day. Now I don’t know what she is doing but I still have her as a friend on fb and I don’t see any changes in her.<br><br>My 3rd girlfriend was the most beautiful and hot girl I have ever dated so far. She was a hostess as well and she would have a sex with any guy who would pay her enough. She had an onlyfans and used to sell her used underwear, socks, other things for thousands of dollars to guys who would send their nudes, sext them etc. She also was a sugar baby and would sleep with old guys to get money and it was just like a part time job for her. She had multiple partners and met her once when she was with another guy and she knew me as well as we were both into hosting and we would go to the same after parties and I asked her out and that’s how we meet. We dated for a year and she helped me with my mental health when I was suffering and she would always try to make me feel good by giving me blowjobs and I will be always great full for her for that. She would have her nose pierced and would show some of her tattoos and she would talk about her sex life openly with others and how she sleeps with guys to get money. She would also cheat on me even when I was buying her new iPhone, new purses, paying for her shopping, paying for the car when we went out and she didn’t have money to pay. We broke up because I didn’t want to date her anymore and I wanted to live a better life than being mediocre and living paycheck to paycheck but I will be always thankful for her for the time she spend with me and how she treated me. Now I don’t know what she is doing and all I know is she is not living a good life and has no good future for herself.<br><br>I am a special need guy with German and Japanese heritage and I am doing alright in life. I graduated from college, got a job and moved to the US. I am working a job with a low salary, no health insurance and no benefits. I am lonely, I am boring, I am poor and my life is shit. But I am proud of myself for getting out of Japan and leaving my past behind and I am waiting patiently for my mental health to improve. I am proud of myself for moving out of my house at the age of 18 and living alone. I am proud of myself even though my life is shit and how I never gave up and focused on my studies. I am proud of myself for getting out of my comfort zone and living a better life than all of my exs. I am proud of myself for not being a burden on the society unlike my exs. <br><br>I don’t give a shit about my exs, they were just women I dated. They were just interchangeable and nothing was special about them even though they had their good qualities and I have moved on a long time ago. I don’t care about their past and anything they did in their past and I don’t give a shit about how they live their lives or what they do because I am not responsible for their future and it is not my problem. I am just proud of myself even though my life is shit and how good things are going for me in the long run. <br><br>I am not bragging, I am just talking about myself and my past when I was in high school, college and how I met my exs. I am just living my life to the fullest even though I am not living that good life and I am trying my best each day.