Felt cute, deleted my tinder account, took a shower, and now I'm on here crying.

What is wrong with me?<br><br>I'm so incredibly late with this milestone. I started dating a girl when I was 15. Then I had a 3 year relationship from 18 to 21, followed by a 2 year relationship from 22 to 24. My first marriage was from 25 to 31, followed by a 1 year relationship from 33 to 34. Since then, I've been single.<br><br>I can't believe I got married at 25. It feels like a lifetime ago. It's hard to believe that I went on Tinder looking for a hookup. I felt so disconnected from anything resembling a relationship. I felt so disconnected from society. I eliminated my Facebook account 3 years ago. I don't have any other social media accounts. I don't have any friends.<br><br>I'm 41 years old. I don't even know who I am anymore. I'm probably going to go inactive on this account too.<br><br>I'm just tired.