I'm a Lithuanian immigrant and I hate Lithuania and I support the end of it

Hello all, I'm a Lithuanian immigrant myself who has lived in the country for the majority of my life. I've also spent a few years abroad for my studies and now work. I've lived in multiple European countries throughout the years and only now have gained insight into what a shithole Lithuania is. I'm also half-Baltic German and half-Polish, so I don't feel the same blind patriotism as many other Lithuanians seem to have. I'm not trying to act like a victim, I'm quite well off, but I hate that I don't have a future in my home country. The country is corrupt, backwards and is dying both economically and demographically. I also hate the fact that it even exists and I support the end of it both culturally and as a state. I hate our blind patriotism, our nationalistic culture, our history, our language, our exclusionary national identity and pretty much everything else about the place. I even hate the fact that I speak the language. I hope we are either invaded by another country or that the country collapses in on itself and is erased from the map forever.