I just wanna be happy.

I always fight this battle. With babes and in them days of the heavy metal years.<br>I just don't wanna be here anymore. I'm not going to go through a list of the many, many reasons why I wanna die, but I'm just so damn tired. I'm just so tired of trying and feeling like I was made to lose in everything. I'm just so tired of never having an absolute win in anything, of never feeling full. I wanna be happy for once in my life. I wanna feel something different in my life. I want to feel the warmth of a hug and the feeling of I can do anything. I just wanna be happy.