I (26M) am off the dating market. The relationship I’ve been in the last few months has been horrible, and I think I’m just done.

I was a virgin til 21, and then I tried dating. After a string of disappointments over the next few years (rude text conversations, being stood up, etc.) I met someone in 2018 and she became my second girlfriend. She was great. I was so glad I had someone. And I loved her. I was depressed, and she cheered me up. She made me laugh. When she broke it off, I was heartbroken. She said I wasn’t good in bed, and she met someone with better qualities. I was shattered. <br><br>I’ve also learned a few years ago after my mother passed away, I am an alcoholic, and it was a long process ever since, to overcome my addiction. I got a new apartment, surrounded my new and better people, and I even got therapy. Things are pretty well now.<br><br>But for the last 4 or 5 months, I began dating someone new. It was great, I thought. We had a few sexual encounters, and then I got really close to her and we continued our ‘relationship’. We talked, we went out. I loved her, I thought, and I told her so. But then she stopped replying to my messages, and she told me she was seeing other guys. I asked her to end the relationship. She broke down and told me she actually loved me, and that she was sorry for everything. But then, she started avoiding me again. I asked her, what’s going on, and she told me she was moving back in with her parents in another state. She didn’t want a long-distance relationship, she said. And that was it, so I told her good bye and I’ll wish her the best. <br><br>I feel terrible. I am a failure. It’s been two relationships in my entire life. I have no confidence to keep trying. I will never find anyone. Every woman hates me. I’m alone, by myself. No one wants anything to do with me. I will be alone forever. I am destined to be alone. I will never be loved. I will never be happy.<br><br>I’m just done. I’m done trying. I’m done looking. I don’t ever want to go out with anyone again, ever. I hate it. I hate being hurt. I hate dating. It sucks. I’ll never find anyone. I’m just better off by myself, forever. And that’s okay. <br><br>I’ll just be alone forever, and I really don’t care. At least I’m not being hurt. ?