I realized how our minds work.

It’s like playing a game, you see an NPC (non playable character) and you want to complete its quests. Everyday you try to get a little closer thinking that you can complete the quest. Later on you realize that the NPC has no quests to offer, they do not have any unique or interesting answers for you to learn. You are not going to get anything from that NPC, and there is no need to waste time on it.