I never thought I would say this but after 8 years of wasting my time on this website, I am finding it more and more boring to do so

I never thought I would say this but after 8 years of wasting my time on this website, I am finding it more and more boring to do so. <br><br>I’m getting fat, depressed, and lonely. I’m not sure what to do. I realize that I need to get out there and I realize that I need to disconnect from the black pill but it’s just so hard to do so. I’m 28 years old and I’m killed over 30 pounds in the last year and a half and I’m stuck in a dead end job and I’m feeling lonely because I have no friends and I’m also depressed because I have no friends and I’m also feeling lonely and I’m also feeling more lonely because my life is just so meaningless. <br><br>There are no options for me. I have to stay in this profession, not because I want to but because I have no other choice. This profession does not pay well. I’m over $350,000 in debt. <br><br>My life is meaningless. I’m not having any fun. I’m just here to die. I just need to accept this fact. <br><br>I don’t know if I will have the balls to do it but maybe when I turn 30 I will end my life. I killed my 20s and I know that I will kill my 30s as well. <br><br>I’m just here to exist. I’m not here to live. I’m here to waste space. Nothing more.