I'm a reassigned male.

I came to terms with it at age 18. I was bullied in school I grew up in a small town. I'm now 22 and I had surgery 2 years ago. <br><br>I knew something was wrong with me since I was about 5 years old. I knew I was different I didn't think I was a girl I knew I was a boy but I always had something inside me that always felt like I was pushed in a way and I always had to do what I was told and I had to do what everyone wanted me to do and I couldn't do what I wanted to do. <br><br>I remember being in middle school and telling my mom I wasn't happy with my body and I wanted to change it and I was laughed at and I was told I was a boy and I was going to have to suck it up and deal with it. I remember always wearing what I was told to wear and acting how I was told to act. I remember watching tv and seeing a girl do something and me being interested and I was met with approval and when I would watch tv and see a boy do something I was met with anger and I was yelled at and I had to go do something else. <br><br>I came to terms with my gender identity and I came to terms with who I was and I had to do it on my own. I was by myself. I didn't have my family or anyone else there for me. I had to go through it all alone. I wasn't met with support and approval I was met with anger and disappointment. I was told that my reassigned surgery was a waste of time and money and I was still a boy and I would always be a boy and I would never be a woman and I would never be a girl. I would never be accepted by them. <br><br>I would never be able to go back to where I'm from and they would never be there for me and I would never have them in my life and they would never be on my side. I had to move on and I had to know that not everyone would always approve of who I am and not everyone will always accept me for who I am. I had to accept that and I had to be okay with that. <br><br>I'm 22 and I'm the happiest I've ever been. I'm happy with my life and who I am and I know I'm a woman and I feel like I've finally got to be me and be my own person and I know I'm finally myself. I'm not on any medication I'm not on hormones and I'm not on any anti depressants and I'm not on any sleep medications. I'm not on anything. <br><br>I'm excited to see who I'll meet in life and who will accept me and I'm excited to see who will be there for me and who will support me and who will be on my side. I'm excited to know that I still have my whole life ahead of me and there's still so much I have to look forward to. I'm excited to meet people who will love me for who I am and I'm excited to meet people who will know me and know how I feel about myself. I'm excited to meet people who will understand me and know how I feel and what I've had to deal with. <br><br>I'm happy I grew up. I'm happy I'm an adult. I'm happy I can do what I want to do and I'm happy I can be on my own. I'm happy I can support myself and I'm happy I can do what makes me happy.