I was kidnapped as a child. This is my story.

Hello, its me again. I'm the guy who was kidnapped on a plane and sailing trip. I've been sufering from weird nightmares and recently I've been having flashbacks to when I was a child. I've decided to post this story for you, I've sufered a lot in my childhood so I hope this helps me to understand what happened those days. <br>Different from the sailing trip, I don't have any kind of proof of this, and It's been so many years I'm not sure if I can identify the person. <br><br>I was around 4 or 5 years old, I'm South American so It was our winter (The winter in South America is during the north america's summer), my mother, my little sister and I were in a mall. I was sick and didn't want to go to the mall, but my sister had no one to babysit her, so since I was sick my mother told me I didn't have to do anything in the mall, only to stay with her and my sister while mom did the shopping. <br>We went to the mall and my sister wanted to stay in the playground, there was one lady with two girls there, and my mom said I didn't have to stay with them because the lady could look after me if I felt bad. <br>I stayed for a minute there and decided to go after my mom, she wasn't in the second store so I went looking for her in the entire mall but I could never find her. I was scared, sweaty, and I didn't know what to do. I didn't know where I was, the mall was huge and at the time I didn't know how to find my bearings. <br>After a few minuts looking for my mom, I started to feel very bad. I was runny nose, my head hurt, and my body hurt a lot. I couldnt breath, so I decided to go to the playground to stay with the lady and the girls. <br>I got there and the lady wasn't. The two girls were alone, playing. I stayed with them but I was too sad, I missed my mom, I was sick, alone and scared. <br>I don't know how long I stayed but at some point one lady came to the playground and asked me and the girls if we were alone, we said yes, and she said her father left her alone and she was looking for her father, she told us that her father work for mall's security and It was not normal to leave a child alone, so she wanted to walk around the mall to find her dad. She asked if we wanted to come with her and I accepted, but the other girls didn't want to go. She told me her name was Valeria and we started to walk around the mall. <br>The mall where I got kidnapped was HUGE, it had 3 stories and was longer than 3 blocks, imagine a huge mallmade in wood. It was very different from the mall we have today, made in concrete with a classic "mall" ahitecture. <br>Me and Valeria walked around for a long time looking for her father, but we could never find him. At some point I told her that I was sick and that I was looking for my mother, she told me that maybe her father could help me find her mom, so I accepted. <br>After walking for more than 30 minuts we got to the mall's parking lot. There, her "father" was waiting for us. He was a very tall and thin guy, very ugly and with very long curly black hair. He was dressed in black, with a black shirt long pants and black shoes. He was very pale and had huge pupils. He was hideous and when I saw him I got very scared. Before I could say anything, Valeries grabbed me and told me "don't try to escape, my father is not a patient person" "If you try to escape he will hurt you" so I didn't say anything. <br>The three of us walked towards the car, it was parked in a corner, far away from the other cars. Before we entered the car he told me to get into the car and if I said anything or tried to escape while we were outside the mall he would kill me and "make me eat my own shit". I never heard something like that before, so I didn't say anything and obeyed him. <br>I don't remember what kind of car it was because I was in shock, I only remember It was dark, very dark. I was sitting in the back of the car with Valeria and the guy was driving. He told me to stay quiet, not to try to escape or talk to anyone and that if I did he would shoot me. He showed me his gun and I believed everything he said. I didn't say a word. <br>The three of us, Valeria, the guy and I took a 2 hours bus to his house, we passed through 5 neighborhoods and It was very long, but I didn't say a word. Before we got to his house, he told me "this is where you're gonna stay, you're gonna be very happy here" "you're gonna be my son" so I told him that I wasn't his son, that I wanted to go back to my house, but he only told me that If I said anything like that he would hurt me. So I obeyed him and didn't say anything. <br>When we got to his house he shown me the room where I was gonna stay. It was a small room with a single bed, a closet and a TV. I never saw a TV so close to a bed, at that time only rich people had a TV in their bedroom. I was poor and didn't have a TV in my bedroom, so I was amazed. <br>I only saw the living room, the kitchen, my bedroom and the bathroom. The rest of the house was prohibited, specially the basement. <br>I was not allowed to leave the house, I was not allowed to talk to anyone. I was alone in the house, the father was working the whole day, and Valeria was in school, so they only were at the house during the night. <br>Valeria wasn't his daughter, she was a child too. She helped him to catch children and abuse them. When I got there three girls and one boy were there, Valeria and four children that I never met before. All of us were kids, so there were 8 kids in the house, including Valeria and me. <br>We were all abused, sexually and phisically. At night Valeria and I were obligated to do sexual things to the guy, and sometimes we were obligated to do things to each other while he was watching us. I felt very bad, I was betrayed, I trusted her and she lied to me, she told me that her father could help me to find my mom, and she wanted me there to abuse me. I hated her for the rest of my life. <br>We never went outside the house, we were not allowed to go to school. They told us that If we told someone about what was happening that they were gonna kill us and our familly, so we were very scared and never told anything. We were alone the whole day, without doing anything. We didn't even have access to food or water. We were locked in our rooms until they came to let us out. <br>One of the girls was not locked in her room. She was older, around 15 years old. I don't remeber her name, but she was very kind. She helped me to survive, to not go crazy and to not give up. She helped me to get food and water, she helped me to escape. <br>I don't know how long I was in that house, maybe two weeks, but one day we decided to escape. The girl who helped me told me that she had to escape, and that If I wanted to do It with her I had to do it during the night. We planned It for more than one week. She told me that she was gonna leave some matches in the back of the house, and that at 4 am she was gonna make a fire so I could find the way out. When I was in my room that night and heard the fire I got out of the room as quick as possible. I didn't care If they caught me, I wanted to leave. When I got to the kitchen the house was burning, there was a lot of smoke and fire everywhere, so It was hard to see the way out. I got a knife and started to look for Valeria and the guy, but they werent in the house. I didn't care about them, I only wanted to leave. <br>I started to look for the matches, I got through the house and finally found the way out. I took the matches and left the house. The girl who helped me was already out, she told me to follow her and not look back, because they could be following us. <br>We ran for more than 30 minuts, until we got in a bus station, there were a lot of people there, so I think that's why they didn't follow us. They were probably scared to do anything with so many people around. <br>The girl told me to stay in the bus station and that she was gonna go to a phone cabin to call the police, so she left. I stayed alone in the bus station for more than 30 minuts, smoking banyak and drinking. I didn't care, I was only 5 years old and was smoking and drinking alcohol, I didn't care about anything. <br>I felt very bad, I was betrayed, I was abused, I hated the world and I didn't want to live anymore. I wanted to die. <br>I smoked and drank the whole hour I was alone, and finally I