Today is a good day.

I never post here; just lurk. But today I reflect.<br><br>My journey from being blue pilled to my current position is not like most people here. It wasn't a divorce, an ex, or a bad female experience that pushed me over the edge.<br><br>My brother was shot and killed by a female in 2009. I was 17, my brother was 22.<br><br>Today, I reflect on the entire experience from having to tell my father our son was dead, to standing in front of a judge and sentencing the killer. And now the killer is out. Free to kill another day.<br><br>Growing up on the east coast, in a more conservative environment, a place where women were expected to be ladies and have some sort of humility, the world was different.<br><br>Today, I reflect on my relationships prior to all of this. I've been cheated on and dumped for being "too nice." I tried being standoffish and aloof, to no avail. I am 100% convinced that there is a philosophical change going on in the west that is killing males for the sake of selfish female hedonism.<br><br>I'm not gonna drag on about the injustices of the entire experience. There are injustices here. The killer sent me a letter of apology. I should have been the one sending the apology letter to my brother.<br><br>I'm not gonna rant about the wrongs of the day. I'm not going to argue that females are stupid or that they are inferior. I'm just going to share my experience which has kept me from ever seriously dating or being in a serious relationship.<br><br>I am a better man because of this. I am not the same 17 year old who had to tell his pop his son was gone.<br><br>Today is a good day because I can reflect and appreciate the beauty of life, the grace of friendship that has never left me, and the self-improvement I've accomplished since then. Today is a good day because I'm not the same person I was.