My girlfriend says it’s okay if I sleep with other girls

I’m a pretty chubby dude, especially for someone my age, and I cherish the fact that my girlfriend is also chubby. I know it sounds shallow, but these days it feels like both women and men are pushing away body types that aren’t lean and athletic<br><br>My girlfriend is the loveliest person I’ve ever met, even when we have our little arguments or fights I always end up feeling sorry for her and she has a way of making me forgive her sometimes even when I’m right lol. I wish I could post our pictures here<br><br>Anyway so, I live in a condo, and there are these two gorgeous cute girls that live in the condo next to mine. I know them pretty well, we always hang out sometimes, we drink together, they’re fantastic people and I can see why they’re always approached by the guys in the area who hit on them. I never did, or at least I tried my best not to, because I feel like something inside me is screaming to see my girlfriend. I love these two girls, they’re my friend, but my love for my girlfriend goes beyond that especially when they’re not even chubby….<br><br>So one day, while we’re drinking, one of them, Janice, told me straight up if I ever need to sleep with other girls then it’s okay with her. She said we don’t have to hide it from each other and that it’s okay if I want to have sex with other girls because she’s not stupid and knows that men can’t help themselves. I immediately gave her a hug, I don’t know if she was expecting it but I gave her a hug and I told her I love her so much for saying that.<br><br>So I brought Janice home, to my condo, and I told my girlfriend what Janice said and then I introduced her to Janice. I can’t describe how much it turned me on to see Janice and my girlfriend together. Even though they’re not chubby, my girlfriend is so so so much prettier than her, to the point where I had to literally hold Janice’s head and I looked her in the eye and told her how much prettier my girlfriend is. Then I gave my girlfriend a kiss, and we all hugged together<br><br>I told Janice she was such a good friend for letting me have sex with other girls, and we both kissed her and we all watched tv together. I was so so so happy I felt like my life was complete. I never felt this happy in my entire life, I have Janice and I have my girlfriend, Janice is so so so loyal and I have my girlfriend who loves me so much<br><br>I told my girlfriend she doesn’t have to be loyal to me, especially since we’re already in our 30s, and we hugged each other and kissed while Janice watched us. I hugged Janice and I told her that my girlfriend and I love her so much and thanked her so many times for being such a good friend to us<br><br>We had our meals together then Janice went home to her condo, I gave her a hug and I kissed her and my girlfriend also hugged her and we told her how much we love her and then she went home. My girlfriend and I watched tv together, then we both fell asleep<br><br>The next day Janice called me. She told me she was thinking about something and how it was so silly of her to have said something like that. She said she was thinking about our relationship and she was thinking about how she was thinking about me even though she knows I’m in a relationship. I told her I appreciate her honesty but I’m disappointed that she said that especially since she was my friend, even though I know she didn’t have any obligation to me<br><br>Then she said, “I know I hurt you” and I was shocked, did I say something like that to her? Then I realized it was my girlfriend who said that to her. Then I realized my girlfriend had been talking to Janice even when I wasn’t around. My girlfriend literally called Janice and told her that she hurt so much and that Janice was so selfish and how did she even think Janice could think about me when she’s already in a relationship<br><br>Then I realized my life was over, Janice was my friend, my girlfriend doesn’t know anything about her except that she’s a pretty girl who flirts with me. My girlfriend literally thinks Janice is after me, while I know Janice is only being a friend when she said that. Janice was so so so upset when my girlfriend called her, she doesn’t even want to see me again or my girlfriend<br><br>I don’t know what to do, my girlfriend has been so so so mean to me. She told me I was so so so stupid for being happy especially since Janice doesn’t even like chubby women, my girlfriend said she can’t believe how dumb and stupid I was for believing that I have such a good friend like that, while my girlfriend has been telling me repeatedly how much prettier she is than Janice and how much more loyal she is compared to her<br><br>I don’t know, my life doesn’t feel the same anymore. Janice was literally my friend especially since my girlfriend doesn’t even know anything about her. My girlfriend is so mean, I never even saw her bully anyone except for me. Whenever we’re out together my girlfriend always makes sure to make herself look prettier than the other girls, and if we eat out she always makes sure to let the waitress know that she’s my girlfriend…<br><br>I know I’m a chubby dude and I shouldn’t complain or especially expect anything from her. I love her so much, I love her so so so much. She’s so so so pretty especially compared to me. My friends all tell me I’m a lucky man, they all tell me how pretty my girlfriend is and they all want to be with her. My friends all tell me I’m stupid for complaining when I have such a pretty girlfriend<br><br>I don’t know, I don’t know what to do. I want to break up with her. But I know I’ll never find anyone like her, my girlfriend doesn’t even care about the fact that I’m chubby, my girlfriend doesn’t even care about the fact that I’m not as fit as the other men especially someone my age. My girlfriend is so so so loyal, I cherish her so much….<br><br>I wish I had someone like Janice in my life. Even if Janice isn’t chubby, she was so so so much prettier than my girlfriend in my eyes. She was so so so much better than my girlfriend. But I can never have anyone else like Janice. I can never have Janice back. Janice doesn’t even want to see me again because my girlfriend told her that Janice was the type of girl who steals husbands or boyfriends…<br><br>I don’t know, my life sucks. I never ever felt so broken in my life. I never ever felt so lost as I do now. I don’t know what to do, I feel like my life is so so so meaningless now.